Monday, July 03, 2006
Brazil and England, the two super powers in the football world, had been eliminated from the quarter-final of World Cup 2006 Germany, in Frankfurt and Gelsenkirchen respectively. They left the tournament with european teams only. Germany will meet Italy, while France will clash with Portugal. Not a bad combination, though the only surprise is the absence of the Brazilians. But it still looks more convincing then four years age, with Germany, Brazil, South Korea and Turkey. But I hope England should be included instead of Portugal. *Sigh*
I had watched 1 1/2 of the match live, which is the whole of Eng vs Por match and 2nd half of Bra vs Fra. Earlier of the day I was supposed to meet my three friends (lj, pam, ron), but I overslept and in the end had to pay $9.50 for a movie I did not watch. But what made it worse is I paid that for a lousy movie (according to all 3 friends) which i missed. *Sigh*
Reached home this afternoon at around 12noon. Being with my two friends after the soccer match and chatted for six hours straight. Must be out of my mind. Thought I want to sleep during the normal hours but ended up being nocturnal again. *Sigh*
Signing in my msn 2 hours ago, I looked for some friends to chat with. Not a lot is online, only sixteen. Then slowly the number decreased. Eleven, ten, and now only left with eight. Seeing the list not only decreasing but also finding hard those friends which I could talk to, amplifying the loneliness in me. It was as if I am living in a world of my own. In a way it is. I was born to be alone, and from my childhood onwards it has never left me. I want to find a way out, to escape from its suffocating grasp. I really want to find someone to help me. *Sigh*
Night has come and lingers, but I am still awake, fully aware of the world going around me. I can almost taste the darkness of the night, and hears the silence soaring in it. The engine hum of the late SBS bus chase it away for a moment , before it returns again. The darkness and silence seep into the house secretly, filling it up effortlessly. Only the light from my monitor and the clickings of my keyboard battled them bravely, unwilling to let darkness and silence take all of the house. Suddenly it seems like they are my only allies in this world, the only friends who understand me completely. And in a way, they are. *Sigh*
So many hellos and goodbyes there are in one's life. Thing changes and moves on rapidly. It applies to everyone, but I hope my life would not be left only with loneliness at the end of it.
*Sigh*
Adruptly I realized I am solely scare of loneliness, but I know love conquered all.
And I can't find it...haiz...
it is just sooner or later
2:38 AM
