Saturday, June 24, 2006
Woke up at 7.45am today. Slept at 1.30am. That means 6hrs 15min of sleep. At last I could sleep with some the usual hours which a typical human sleeps.
I had a weird dream in my sleep. (Suddenly I've the impulse to listen to some music. So I open up my wmp n play it directly. A hokkien song by jay chou. hmm not too bad... I set the sound to just almost audible. Any louder and I can't concentrate writing, haha). Weird dreams have always been part of my life. I always think it is a pity that I do not have enough "ink" in me to be a writer, if not I can just jot down my dream every time I wake up and I will have enough ideas for my work for the rest of my life. I guess it is just because I am an imaginative person, and of course being emotional did not help it. By the way the latest dream was about some cats which understood human languages and can turn into young girls. Senseless, yes, but my dreams have always being it, and most of the time confusion comes along. There is a saying that dreams are like prophecies, and can forecast the future. If that is the case then I think mine will be complicated as hell, and will also drives any dream-teller mad if I approach one.
I felt really good this morning, without a trace of any negative emotion. Funny, but it is great anyway, to be able to feel the lightness of my body instead of the heaviness iof my heart everyday I awoke. For some unknown reason I had been feeling depressed and low for the past few weeks. Or is it months? Forgotten, but it is good to feel like an "alive" person again. (Whoa... jay's ban dao tie he. This one I don't mind turning up the volume a bit). Really want to thank all those who offered helps and shown concern for me for the past weeks, to whatever extent: huiting, wooty, beak, kan, pam, manyun, diana, xinyi, chinni, sheryl and other "ikan bilis" who might have slipped my mind (haha, sorry). [Looking at the names now I am surprise to see some unexpected names in it. Maybe I have gone soft and been sprouting my problems for everyone to see. Sh*t, must eliminate them all at once. lolx]
Some remarks from the above group:
-Heh, dun be sad la (how I hope)
-if u r depress dun keep it to urself (obviously, I did not. lol)
-can find a corner and cry it all out ( I want to, but it isn't easy to summon my well of tears)
-recommend u a book, can cheer u up (sorry I've forgotten the title again, haha)
-wat happen? (thanks for ur concern)
-life's is like a roller coaster, there is up's and down's (sound advise, but I don't want my life to be one, because most roller coasters always start and end with a low point)
-i miss de old u , cheery, happy n... lame ( I miss the old me too, minus the lame part)
-u r not like de danny I noe, *refer to above* (that's not really me...)
-should let go all ur hatred (impossible, can only minimize it)
-(referin to 1 of my msn nicks) y r u crying?, y do u wan to cry?, dun cry la,(and a very evil one) CRY BA!!!
(Finish listening to the entire album of "ba du kong jian".)
Can't help thinking of you day and night.
it is just sooner or later
9:19 AM
